I grew up in church worshipping God every Sunday and attending catechism on Saturday mornings or Wed. nights. I was a “good”, Catholic girl. I was kind to others and respectful to my parents and other authority. I prayed to God, but I remember my prayers to have been rote and very shallow. While I knew that God loved me and that he had sent his son Jesus to this earth, I felt like I had to work at pleasing Him, at having to earn His approval. I strived for people’s approval as well. Deep down I had this sense about me that I was missing something, and yet I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.
I married a man that Protestant, and because of our religious differences, after awhile we stopped attending church at all. Then when our oldest son was small, a neighbor invited us to their church one Sunday. It wasn’t long before the Holy Spirit touched my heart. As I sat there that Sunday morning, I felt very out of place. I felt as if everyone around me was singing from the same hymnal, yet I was in a different pew in a different church. They were Christians and at that moment, I knew for certain I was not. The light bulb had finally come on. I now realized that my faith had been on my mother’s apron strings, not my own heart strings. I realized that I had been going thru the motions, but had not developed a relationship with God the Father thru His son Jesus. For the first time in my life, I understood that I could never earn my way into Heaven. I needed a Savior.
There at the altar on that Sunday morning, I committed my life to Jesus. I didn’t know how to on my own, but the Pastor, surrounded by my husband and a couple of sweet ladies in the church, led me in the prayer of salvation. In that prayer…
- I admitted I am a sinner; that I had a need for a Savior.
- I repented of my sins by asking for forgiveness.
- I acknowledged that Jesus, God’s one and only son, died and rose again.
- I invited Jesus to come in and take control my life.
Because of that step of faith that morning, I gained access to God thru His son. Before that day, I wondered where I would spend eternity. Since then, I have forever had 100% security in the fact that I will be in Heaven so I do not fear death. Any guilt that once weighted me down is gone, forgiven, erased forever. When I feel that my world is caving in, the knowledge and confidence that God, the creator of the Universe, is in control has given me peace that surpasses all understanding time after time. My life has never been the same. Following Jesus has not always been easy, but it has always been worth it. I cannot imagine life without Jesus. Jesus gave His life for me. The least I can do is live for Him.
How to Pray:
Dear Lord Jesus,
I know that I am a sinner and need your forgiveness. I believe that you died for my sins. I want to turn from my sins. I now invite you to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as Lord and Savior. In Jesus’ name. Amen.